Thoughts about life.

Recently, I've got quite a few back to back flights, first is Qingdao, then one and a half day later Sydney, then three days later Bkk then I'm being activated for Sydney flight again the day after and now that I've finally got an off day in Singapore but who knows, I'm gonna report for Korea flight the next morning. Hectic life ins't it? But I'm considered good enough as compared to other working adults who have to work 5 days a week, from 8-5pm. Seriously saying, they can do it but I doubt my ability to do so.

Even having said so, my job isn't paying me a lot, at times i do get a headache balancing giving enough money to parents at the end of the month, going out to spend on the things I want and to change money to survive overseas. Sounds bad uh? Well, cause I'm working for a budget airline, I can't expect much..   

For a girl who is at my age, I guess she would probably knows what she wants in her life. But for me, I'm still searching for what I really like and would want to do in my life. I wasted a lot of time trying to think what works best for me, but I simply just can't find an answer to it. I'm lost...

I guess most people go through this stage in their life. It really goes down to the way you manage the problem. However, people usually choose the path s/he familiar w the most and that's the reason why they are always not trying out new things.  

Yeah & most people want to achieve this, be daring to fight for your dreams and be who you want to be. But it's easier said than done. Sometimes it's not just about the guts, there are some other factors that contribute to it like for example time, energy and most importantly money. If I want to learn dancing, I've to make sure I've got the time and money to do so. If I want to open up a blog shop, I've got to make sure I have the capital to buy the stocks, do advertising and the time to run my business. Having to talk about this, I've a blog shop but due to busy flying schedule and laziness, I've left it to rot by itself. It only shows how much I suck at running my own business and also as a boss. 

With the high standards of living in Singapore coupled with the influx of foreigners settling down with less for a paycheck, it is really hard to find jobs that pay well and makes it even harder to survive here. Also, having a flexible time job is good but if the pay isn't ideal, would one still stay? Or the other way, the job scope sucks but pay is really good, will one stay to work for the money, having to feel so unhappy everyday in life? I guess it really boils down to the individual. I am definitely not one of those who is willing to work for good money at the expense of sacrificing my happiness. & when the day you really sit down and think, you would probably think that you've wasted so much time doing things that you don't like and that you didn't get to enjoy life and lead a life of yours or how it should be. There's a saying in chinese that iterates: how many more 10 years in your life can you get? Maybe give you a four or five 10 years?, and let me tell you, time and tide waits for no one. Once you missed it means it is gone forever. there is no turning back time and if I have a clock like this, I would want to revert back to when I was still a baby, all I know what to do is cry. HAHA, YES DREAMING IS WHAT I AM BEST AT.

Make the best out of everything in your life. Maybe at some point of time you might think it doesn't work out ideally, but I believe everything happens for a reason. For some things we do, we might not know the meaning behind it, until the time when you tried out something new, you think back of the things you did n the past & you will realise that actually whatever you learnt helps shape you into a better person and that's when you know the meaning behind it. 

Take a step at a time and you will realize every small little things and actions you do contributes to who you are today & doesn't mean outcome is always the most important, the process of it matters importantly. Just like this.

This is something that I will learn as well. Before I end the post... something I thought might be meaningful.

"Imagine there is a bank account that credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day. Every evening the bank deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cents, of course? 

Each of us has such a bank. Its name is Time. Every morning, it credits you with 86400 seconds. Every night it write off as lost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to a good purpose. It carries over no balance. It allows no over draft. Each day it opens a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day. If you fail to use the day deposits the loss is yours. There is no drawing against "tomorrow." you must in the presents of today's deposits. Invest It so as to get utmost in health, happiness, and success. The clock is running. Make the most of today."

xx,

Cecil.